Change...

Its been a while (some would say - a hell lot of time) since anyone has written on this blog...

Life has changed a lot since the last time I wrote in here... n considering myself as an optimistic guy... I wud say its changed for the better...

Its not just my life but the life's of almost all the guys I referred to in my previous blog has changed...

As I sit rt now at the airport n try to put my thots together... They jus wander from one event to the other...

There were a lot of happy (masti) moments n there were a few equally disturbin moments...

There were days when everythin was lookin so perfect to the days when life runs like a silent movie where no one speaks a word as if the group is there jus for the heck of it... No one knows what to speak so everyone is silent.. I hate these days...

I just try to make those days fewer n fewer n hope those days go off completely.

Coming back to the s-e-p gang.. I have seen so much of change in the past few months... I rarely believe its the same gang... But again there are moments when all get together as if its one grt family (like the get together we had over the new year's eve...)

I hope n wish these moments happen more often.. But I know the diverse each one grows the more difficult it becomes...

I know am being the so called senti where I don't look like one... But frankly I want to see a day where I want to see each one of the gang to be their previous self n get the group back to what it was before...

Seeing on an individual basis I see each one growing in their own life... One gettin a grt job... While another getting a grt qualification... N one gettin a grt life partner n another gettin a dream partner... Where one got the chance to work with the guys he always wanted n another getting into a company which will carve their career graph to new heights... yet another is on the verge of gettin tat thing tats awaited for over a couple of years bearin all the guys around...

But one thing which I really hate to say but which is a fact out here is... In the course of achieving these new heights n new partners we have grown away from each other... so lets try not to forget the good days that we had together…

Coming to my current stage.. I am as such again living in a strange world... Frankly have no clue why I am doing a few things or what I am talking... One thing which I could get out after a lot of so called thinking is - am using or am just following my heart... N not my brain...

That I guess is the reason for a few people getting surprised by the changes in me... They see them as some pleasant changes n me too... After a long time I am following this but I fear... I fear of hurting someone n in the process gettin hurt... It has always happened in the past... Hope this time its different...

But rt now n in future as well, I will never regret the days n the guys I came across during this phase of life n will do anythin to make these frens n days last a lifetime :)

Guess time to get on the plane n to the real world...

Thanks Guys

It’s been sometime since I was thinking of writing something… but I guess the only stuff I have been writing since then are mails…

I guess that’s how life has become for me now – think of something and end up doing something else… but I can’t complain coz those something else have always turned out to be good for me…

The past 2 years have been remarkable… I guess right from the moment I came into this world – life has been special to me… got a family to die for… literally I am ready to do anything to see a smile on their faces… grown up just like a kid next door, full of masti n shararat… playing all those pranks n doing all those hungamas in School n after school… but one thing which I always ensured… its ok even if my heart is hurt but never hurt anyone’s heart… something which I learned from my parents…

Then college, then out of home away from parents… then CA, then a job where finally Serish was not replaceable… I guess even today they are waiting for me to come back and get things back to where I left… then CPA… something which I felt was only an unfulfilled dream till the date I took the risk of registering myself after borrowing from a fren… (didn’t even had that much amount in my account to register myself)… but again that’s something (borrowing) which I never wanted to do but again – “Never to Complain”

Then came the time to take another decision… felt that was the right decision at that moment… all the guys I knew were of an unanimous opinion that it would be a big mistake for me to move to Mumbai… but again there were a few who were with me when I took this decision… at that small a salary at that small a designation… I took that risk of moving into a position where I didn’t had any work nor anything to prove… at one moment even I felt it was a mistake… just a 2 min discussion with my then boss n then the way things turned around… even today I still think – if I wouldn’t have had that discussion then… in this entire time I come across a few new frens my roommates… who I was sure were always ready to discuss or help in case I needed anyone… these guys don’t know whether they are aware of it or not – have helped me in being by my side… n those were some of the rough days of my life where I was indecisive and was just living life for the sake of it…

Then life turned… someone who got rusted with no work for over 6 mths was given the most demanding task – with just one sentence by the guy who I admire a lot (Keshav) – “I know u can do it”… this was despite he getting feedback from every top guy in the department that – “it’s a mistake of putting him in the new profile” – but he kept his confidence in me… n even today I thank him for everything that he did for me at my career level…

N then again life had to show its twists and turns… when the official life was at its perfect stance n so was my personal life… life gave its biggest blow to me… even today I can’t believe I came out of it… I was in such a mess… n one thing which I can never forget is the support I got from my roomies… I know I have shown my frustration on them n made the entire atmosphere tensed… but they were there… guys u r the best things that have happened to me in the recent past… if they were not with me at those moments then… I don’t even want to imagine my situation… thanks to all u guys I came out of the entire thing that too within such a short time frame… even today they still haunt me sometimes…

This was the time when I thought… anything for these guys… I guess after that… whatever anyone of them has asked… they got it… whatever that I could afford or do I did… simply put in - they have become a part of my life…

Then time came when some of the guys had to move out… it hurts really does… frankly I guess anyone would have observed that this guy felt bad when some of them had moved out… but again am pretty bad in expressing…

But again I came across a few more frens… really interesting ones… slowly they have become a part of my life – knowingly or unknowingly… I care for them… I do…

In the last two years…. I have seen myself evolve like never before… each one of you have helped me in it… no specific instance that I wanna pin point to, but each day / every time we meet I have learned something from each one of you…

This has helped me not just in my personal life, its helped me even in my professional life, a part of my success over the past couple of years goes to u guys too…

Now again work-life has come to a state, where Serish has become in-dispensable… so he is promoted oops double promoted, salary doubled… n everyone (in office) comes in and show they care for me…

Lets c what life has in store now…